argh! so much silence all around me and a misty cold. wat to do now? update? SURE. update, we lost yesterday 1-0...i busted up my knee lol well cut it very badly (just like carpet burn but this time on dirt) today i reopened a few wounds, *sighs* oh well! ^.^ it seems as tho, yet again, i am inspired by a book. but damn it! damn such inspiration that gives me not the motivation to complete the chapters of the story i now write. such a dissapointment i feel! when my companion looks at me with dissapointment and when they are too sad to even care..........wat do i do? how do i cheer up my friends? i wish i could tell.....it bothers me so, like i vine that creeps up from the depths of the earth (as one's heart) and after such great time kills the great being that is this tree (and my heart). oh! my heart, how it pains to see a friend sad. Therefore, i dedicate my previous poem to all my friends, so they too kno that not only they feel this sorrow, the Sun too...is lonely...the stars weep 4 them!

......err sorry, it's the inspiration coming thro, *sighs* ne wayz, off i am, to disaapoint more people. my friends, i tell u this tho, if i do so dissapoint u, please let it b known that now is a time...a time when i am focussing on my own needs, i want not to b selfish, i do this so i will become stronger and then dissapoint u no more....

Astrid*

btw Eiko-chan, on that day that we were talking 'bout poems, i went to the comp to start the chap of the story....demo, instead i started to write a poem *looks around* weird ne? ne wayz, it has to do wid the story (the last line makes it kinda obvious) demo...i dun think it's very good..it kinda end aburptly also :S...:P but i thought id post it ne ways, there's no title! so.....jA nE!! ^-~



I wake and meet the loneliness
The dawn brings me not one sunlit kiss
Amongst the stars of the newborn heaven
That is this dawn
Only gaps of loneliness fill the dark space between ones haven


Oh why, must the stars weep?
Their tears falling in a cascade of light and spark
It’s like this red sea, so deep,
That on ones heart loneliness will leave its mark

The Sun is too, lonely
No clouds nor colour enhance the beauty of its wake
You can sparsely see it weep, slowly,
In those drops of gentle dew of morning’s make

My mind is lonely and bare
Of any thought or ambition for morrow
Only these still eyes see what’s hiding there:
A dully lit, blooded sea of sorrow

No beings sing for this angel’s sky
Like it did on many times past
And if you asked why
I would reply: this day is marked as humanities’ last

Hoshi says:


Jade-chan's link all better! b^-^